Ramble Ramble!

Hey everyone!
So all of you should probably know by now that I am on the Open winter guard for LC. If you don't, read older blogs! But anyways because I'm on the open guard there are a lot more performances to worry about. This saturday is going to be one of the scariest so far. This weekend is Indy regional in which case we sleep in a hotel just like we did in color guard. But because of this Indy regional, our coach, Mr. B, is getting incredibly nervous. He gets super duper nervous about these winter guard competitions especially for the open guard. Meaning that he is going to yell at us a whole bunch. Confession: I hate being yelled at. It's a horrible feeling even when it's not you getting yelled at in the first place. You just get that feeling in your stomach and it just doesn't feel very good at all. It almost feels like guilt when your not even guilty. So that's my major worry this week, Mr. B screaming at us every practice and then being super stressed out about this competition. What stresses me out the most is the fact that its prelims and then finals. It depends on how good you are whether or not you make finals which is obvious and I shouldn't be explaining that. Anyways I'm really nervous because some people don't have the emotional connections the same way that others do. In my case this winter guard show is about my dad. He passed away from colon cancer before I even got into the 2nd grade and I barely got to know him. All I remember now is silly things like Disney world or piggy back rides or silly nicknames. For other people this show is about a breakup or a boyfriend cheating on you and breaking your heart. I've never actually had that feeling. I'd rather not have that feeling for a very long time. I don't really understand dating in middle school or high school. Mainly because there's so much other drama going on that you don't need anymore about whether your bf's tie matches the color of your dress or that they hugged some other girl or stupid things like that. I don't understand any of that kind of stuff. I guess that makes me a ton different than any other girl. I mean I'd rather be different than just like everybody else. Everyone wants to be "normal" but what exactly is the definition of normal. NO ONE IS NORMAL! Especially in high school. Not everyone is on the guard, not everyone is on the dance team, not everyone gets straight A's, not everyone gets straight D's. Everybody is different. And if you think that everyone being the same is cool, then you are thoroughly disturbed. Well, back to the fun stuff. I seemed to get a little serious there which rarely happens haha. ANYWAYS I finally got my loft bed installed and it's amazing! The only problem is I'm having trouble getting use to not sitting straight up in the morning haha. I've already done that a few times where I've hit my head on the ceiling. My mom and I started decorating my room too. We got a new rug, new curtains, new pillows and bed sheets. It's so much better than it was before! Before everything was bright blue and it had to be that way because otherwise things would clash! So now my room's walls are neutral color and then I have warm colors so it doesn't feel so cold. It's a lot more relaxing I have to admit. I will probably get a lot more homework done without the distraction of the bright blue walls. Well, I believe this is yet another edition to my series called "Ramble Ramble!" see you guys later!
Sincerely,
Tinkerbell